HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
Time to kiss 2018 goodbye, and welcome 2019 with open arms, an open mind and an open heart.
I’ve gotta say, 2018 was a really great year and I did a lot of weird but amazing things. I learned a lot about who I am as a person, what I want my life to look like in 10, 20 years from now, I fell a few times, made some mistakes, did things out of my comfort zone and cried a few tears. But overall it was a really incredible year that I am very thankful for.
First things first, I went one year completely OCD free which is a damn good thing to celebrate. I haven’t had an OCD episode since the end of December in 2017. So the whole year of 2018 I was OCD free and it feels so damn good. Yes I still have anxiety from time to time but when I say and OCD episode I mean having very vivid intrusive thougths that trigger strong feelings of anxiety. My mind would get very blurry, I couldn’t focus on anything, I would get hott and sweaty, my heart would pound and I couldn’t relax due to the thougths I was having. So this is separate from just general anxiety. But anyways, left OCD in 2017 and I plan on keeping it that way. (mindfullness and meditation helped me overcome this).
So because I’ve healed from my OCD, my mental health throughout 2018 has been really strong for the whole year which has not happened since 2014 when my anxiety first occured. Sure there have been life events that caused me stress but mental illness wise, I kicked ass this year!
April: Became a beachbody coach. I was debating doing this for like 3 months because I thought it was a scam this and that but I gave it a shot because there are a lot of really successful coaches out there who LOVE it. Tried out a program called 80 day obsession, tried shakeology which I actually really loved but in the end the whole coaching thing wasn’t for me. It is really cool and there is a lot of potential, but being salesy over social media isn’t really my forte, plus I really enjoy going to the gym and doing workouts on my own, not following a video or a program thats meant to do in your home. But atleast I tried it! Otherwise I probably would still be wondering about it.
May: Live and Nourish was born! I am so very proud of my blog and something that I have always wanted to do. Not particularly blogging, that decision came into my life not long before I actually launched it. But I have always loved to read and write and I’ve always been good at it. With my passion in nutrition and self-love I figured blogging would be a perfect way to portray that, and hopefully help and inspire people along the way! Helping people is my passion and I really want this blog to go big in changing the way women view themselves and inspire them to take care of their mind and bodies. Blogging has turned into such a hobby of mine, I really love writing and talking about fitness, wellness and nutrition topics and engaging with other bloggers on social media. I just really want to send a positive message and make a positive impact on the world.
June: I graduated with my bachelors degree in human nutritional sciences which was an incredible day. This degree took me 5 years to complete so that was a huge accomplishment. Also, I literally had no fucking clue where that degree was going to take me and no idea what I really wanted to do with it. I still am not really sure but I have a rough idea of where I want it to go, I try to just live life, let shit be and see where things take me instead of stressing. One step at a time, I mean im only 23. I loved school and I really do miss it, but man oh man it felt good to complete my degree.
June-September: These 4 ish months were so stressful. Like I have no idea how many times I called my boyfriend crying because I couldn’t find a job, I was so broke, I was scared I’d never find a job and had no clue what I wanted to do with my life. Helloooo post-university anxiety. Plus I felt so much pressure from people asking me, “So now what?”, “What are your plans” ” Where do you want to work” ” did you find a job yet”??? This drove me crazy!! Everyones on their own path, trying to figure their own shit out, so all of the pestering from people and my family gave me the most insane anxiety. I feared going uptown because i didn’t want to run into people and have them ask about my plans and what I’m doing with my life. I have no idea! Just tryna enjoy life at the moment.
Anyyyways after I graduated I was working as a health coach at a small business in Winnipeg but it was solely based on building your own client base which takes time and I had to travel lots and wasn’t making ANY money. Being fresh out of school, I had no money to begin with so this was really tough. In the end I felt I needed to find something that paid hourly so I can pay off some student debt.
So from there it took me literally all of summer to find a job it was awful. Everyone would tell me: Keep your head up, you will find something, it will take time blah blah blah. At the time I felt like a job would never come up and I was trying really hard to get my foot in the door with the IERHA but it just wants happening. UNTIL…
After working a few temporary positions that had nothing to do with my degree I took a job as a dietary aide at Pine Falls Hospital. I really wanted to get my foot in the door with the regional health authority and get more clinical experience and work my way up so I was really happy when that happened for me. So thats what I’m doing right now, and I am also working at a gym in Selkirk called Glow Fitness for Women. Working both jobs I’m working full time hours which is good. I really enjoy working at both places. This isn’t something I want to do forever by any means but I’m still young, still finding my way and getting nutrition/fitness experience wherever I can.
CURRENT: Blogging, Working, ALSO working on getting my personal training certificate because I have some future plans to incorporate an online personal training business into my blog :). Thats what I am starting to see more clear for my future. I just want to make a difference in peoples lives and change the way they see themselves and see food and help them live a healthier, happier life. Trying to follow my dreams yenno?
I am living at home which is fine with me. Me and my boyfriend are trying to save as much as possible and then hopefully soon, have our own place and build a life together.
Honestly, looking back at 2018, it was really hard to get out of my post university slump. I put so much pressure on myself to have 1 full-time job, make lots of money right off the hop JUST because I have a degree. Well I was in for a MAJOR reality check.
Sometimes you have to start from the bottom, not have your dream job right away, work a few different jobs before you are where you want to be. Which is totally okay! You have to work your way up, which in my opinion makes you much more grateful. 2018 taught me to just relax and enjoy the ride, I will be where I want to be eventually if I put in the work.
Looking ahead to 2019 I have a lot of goals and plans for myself. I want to continue building and working on my blog, growing this little business I have created. Successfully complete my personal training certificate and coach/train people online or one on one (haven’t decided yet). Help people with their diets as well on top of their fitness.
I want to love myself more, forgive more, take time to myself daily and slow down. Life should NOT be rushed 24/7, its important to check in with yourself and enjoy the little things. I want to continue to appreciate my body for all that it does for me and fuel it with the right foods. I want to allow myself to eat foods I want to eat like friday night pizza and beer, sunday morning pancakes with my boyfriend, and chips and salsa if its movie night, WITHOUT punishing myself. I want to live life to the absolute fullest.
Instead of focusing on new years resolutions, how about we focus on small things, small goals that we can do every day, every week or every month to better ourselves. Focus on being happy and healthy, instead of trying to look a certain way. Be kind and gentle to not only other people but to yourself too.
I hope you all had an AMAZING new years eve and have a beautiful start to 2019 as well. For me…. I had a little too much wine on new years, my boyfriend straight up had to take my makeup off for me and put me in pjs LOL. Also had a huge seafood feast the next day, napped alot, it was great.
Cheers to 2019! Lets make it a great one!